I will be honest. Lately I have been craving the creamy crack. I know, it's the worst thing for your hair, but the feeling just keeps getting stronger. I'm just tired of natural hair. I thought it was supposed to be really versatile and that I would be able to rock straight or curly hair, but I think I'm in way over my head. My curly is always frizzy and my straight is never straight enough, and when I picture myself I no longer see myself with long curly locks. All I can picture is long flowy, straight tresses. What am I to do. Also, I have discovered that I am not the only one feeling this way. My older sister who has been natural the same amount of time I have is also feeling the pull for a creamy crack fix. I'm really confused and I have no idea what to do or how to keep myself from doing something that I may regret later.

I decided that my program of choice would be the P90X system and the koch yoga zone series. I didn't want to just jump right into the p90x so I thought I would ease myself into it with the yoga zone: abs sessions. So for the first week I did one of the two routines from the abs sessions of the series. The second week I started on the lean program of p90x.
I must admit I have not been as consistent with the workouts. I like totally skipped out on the workouts for two days. I did, however, attempt to do two of the workout sessions tonight but, sadly I could not get through half of one or the warm-up on the other. :( So, I'm gonna do some catch up work over the weekend. One thing I have been consisten with is my food diary. Like I said before I'm not changing the what I eat I'm just going to monitor how much I eat. Something I've noticed is that my appetite is picking up. The same thing happened a few years ago too. The more active I got the more I started to eat. It seemed like when I started eating like a dog the weight just started dropping off. Although I have not reached the point where I am eating any and everything in sight my appetite has increased.
I don't really feel like making an entirely seperate post for my food diary entries I'll just put them in this post. These are entries for the first two weeks between February 21, 2011 and March 3, 2011:

• February 21: 2 chocolate chip waffles, 2 glass of milk, 2 honey bun (little Debbie)[different times of the day], nutrient bar, 1/2 bottle of water, 2 buffalo wings (tyson), crawfish/shirmp etouffee w/rice, coke (can), cup of water, and a bottle of water. "Got my day 1 of yoga in around 10p.m. feeling really good about it."
• February 22: 2 chocolate chip waffles, glass of milk, nutrient bar, 1/2 bottle of water, 2 egg/cheese/ham sandwiches (eggs fried regular[usually I put all kinds of crap together and stuff that doesn't look like it should go with eggs but this time I just scrambled them like a normal person]), 2 glasses of cran-strawberry juice, coke, 2 fish portions w/tartar sauce(gorton's fisherman), crawfish/shrimp etouffee (leftovers). "I was suppose to be getting up an hour early to workout but getting up to exercise in the morning just doesn't seem like it's going to happen. I haven't gotten out of the bed and both days I attempted to try it I was late for school/work. So, I'm going to have to just make time in the evening when I get off from work."
• Feb. 23: 2 waffles, glass of milk, 2 honey buns, bottle of water, 2 fish portions w/mayo dipping sauce, coke (can), cheezy brown rice/broccoli/smoked sausage pieces/spagetti noodles, nutrigrain bar, and 1/2 glass of cran-strawberry juice. "I'm in a snacky mood today. I really feel like eating an all bread sandwhich right now! LOL!!!"
• Feb.24: 2 waffles, little more than 1/2 glass of milk, grab bag of pork skins, 2 nutrigrain bars, honey bun, 2 fish portions w/mayo dip, Cheezy brown rice/broccoli (leftovers), 1/2 bottle water, and 2 glasses cran-strawberry juice. " I really didn't feel like doing yoga today so I substittuted with 90 situp variations. Also, I'm feeling really hungry so I'm going to drink some water and go to bed."
• Feb. 25: 2 waffles, glass cran-strawberry juice, bottle of water, 2 nutrigrain bars, 3 fish portions, cheezy brown rice leftovers, coke, and a honeybun.
• Feb.26: 3 homemade pancakes w/grape jelly, cup of coffee(heavy on the milk), 1/2 coke, 2 pieces of popeye's chicken ( thigh & wing), little more than a handful of freezer fries, bottle of water, mug of warm milk, 1small mrs. field's macadamian nut cookie, half cup of milk and a peanutbutter and jelly sandwich. "I'm not working out on the weekends cuz its hard to find time and space.
• Feb. 27:Mayo & Mustard egg sandwich, bottle of water, potatoe salad, white beans & rice, chicken thigh (popeye's), cherry dr. pepper, potatoe salad, 2 gorton's fish portions, and 2 slices of white bread w/mustard. " I did not get to start the P90x on Friday, but I totally plan to start tomorrow."

Okay, I know I said I would fill in journal entries up to the 3rd of March but, it's almost 1 o'clock in the morning and I have to be up really early in the morning for work. So, I'll try to either add it on to this post or post again tomorrow when I get home.

Labels: Exercise, Food Diary, Nutrition, P90X, weight loss, Work out, Yoga

So on my other blog I said I was going to use it for my weight tracker but, I changed my mind. I'm not going to go through the whole set up again because I don't feel like it. So, I put the link up from the other blog with the whole break down and there you go.

It is truly amazing how blessed you are and you never realize it. Lately I've been feeling like nothing is going right for me. I've been a little down from my usual downer attitude; but, sitting in church last night someone made me realize just how blessed I truly am. So, I was sitting there waiting for church to start and this guy hugs me on his way in. He stopped and said "Oh, look at you with your Ed Hardy purse." That was all it took for me to realize how blessed I am.

Wow, this has truly been a wonderful year for me. So the first thing on my list for the end of this year is to sit down and thank God for all that he has blessed me with and all that is to come.I was on the prayer-line with my apostle and she made it very clear that this is the time of the year where we should be thanking God for allowing us to make it through this year and to make a list of the things God has blessed us with this year. Then to make a list of the blessings we are still believing for this year and what we are believing for next year and hoping to accomplish with God's help. So tonight I'm am sitting here contemplating all of these things and making my praise reports and appeals. Also, I'm making financial decisions for the year to come. I've decided time and time again that I don't like being broke or depending on anyone to take care of my financial needs. So, I'm creating a financial plan for myself that will include not only how to save money but a plan to make money and have it work for me in the least possible stressful way. I want to be really meticulous about this list and pick over every possible expense and investment. I want to include how I intend to make the amount I want to make and how to improve on what I'm already doing. I also want to work out a health plan for myself. Not something concrete that I won't possibly be able to accomplish but something I no that I can commit to. Like doing at least ten sit ups every morning, walking, and taking the stairs instead of the elevator; simple stuff like that. I won't make resolutions or mentally commit to things I know are impossible or will appease my ego by making up a simple resolution that any child should be able to keep. No, I'm going into the new year with an open mind and a clear conscience and without pressure that I put on myself to live up to impossible standards. So, I guess you can say that I am really optimistic about the coming year and all that will come of it!!!

Lately I've been neglecting my blog even more. I'm so sorry bloggy. Any who, I just got back into school so that's been taking up most of my time. I've got a lot to do and a little time to do it. New school new requirements. And, are they some requirements! So, now I'm working on getting setteled in school and back into the flow of writing papers, studying, and trying to find time for everything else in my life. Hopefully in the future I'll be able to do a better job on my blog. Hopefully I'll be able to do better on some other things I'm struggling with that I don't want to disclose right now because it makes me feel like crap everytime I do. I can't believe I had a great day yesterday evening and this morning; but, with one mention of it my whole attitude just switched. I hate that I'm that way about something like this. I don't want to feel this way, not about this, but unfortunately I do. I can lie to the people around me but, I can't lie to God. He knows without me ever having to say it; and, for that reason I want to do better for His approval, His exceptance, and to just do it for His glory. I know it doesn't sound like it makes sense right now but eventually it will.

I'm just starting summer school, it's been a while. It's kind of a struggle to get back into the swing of things; but, I am just soooo glad to be back in school, I missed it. Right now, I kind of feel like I'm running and in a constant sprint to try and get on track. I kind of always feel like I'm behind on my work, but I'm optimistic and I have favor, so I know everything is going to work out fine.