It is truly amazing how blessed you are and you never realize it. Lately I've been feeling like nothing is going right for me. I've been a little down from my usual downer attitude; but, sitting in church last night someone made me realize just how blessed I truly am. So, I was sitting there waiting for church to start and this guy hugs me on his way in. He stopped and said "Oh, look at you with your Ed Hardy purse." That was all it took for me to realize how blessed I am.
Let me tell you why. In my life I have bought maybe two, if that much, name brand purses(the legal way). I have paid less than one hundred twenty dollars on both of them put together. I have been given... Given... more than six name brand purses and I didn't have to do anything to get them. I didn't ask for them, I didn't beg, they were just given to me without any expectations in return. Anybody who knows me knows that I love bags. You want to get me something, get me a cute bag. Oh, and mind you, none of them were christmas, birthday, etc...gifts; they were just "here this for you", or "do you want this" type of deal. It's like all this time God has just been blessing me right and left and it never rang clear to me until last night. I mean, how many people can say that?
It wasn't even an instant realization. After he said that, it just kept ringing in my head; and, then I heard clearly, "look how blessed you are. What people spend thousands on you have been given. You didn't have to lower or sell yourself to get them. Look at how God takes care of his own. How He has been taking care of you for so long without you even realizing it." It's just amazing to me. And, even now while I'm sitting here writing this I'm just amazed at how much I've been given, blessed with and I never knew. I haven't had a job for years (I want to say since 2004) but I have never been without. I'm not talking about food or shelter (the necessities) I'm talking about the extra. The stuff you can make it without. I've never lacked in that for years and I did that with my own money that I was constantly blessed with and I can't even tell you where I got it from in the first place ( no, I can tell you where God). It's just a wonderful feeling to know that God has been taking care of me and blessing all this time and now it's time for me to have faith a conscious faith in what he can, has, and will do for me in the future.